It’s okay not to be okay.
by aribbonwhereshedies
I’m crying my eyes out. You’re not here to wipe them away and you don’t want to be. I’m sorry if I did anything. I really am. I want you back. I wish you would at least talk to me. We haven’t spoken in weeks. Do you even want to hear my voice? I want to hear yours.
I’m hurting so bad and there’s no one that understands. I’m alone and I’m by myself. Come back and save me please. I’ve been in the dark for so long and I want to see the light again. You showed me that light. I never knew I could be so happy. I’ll do anything to have you back. It’s so hard to pretend every single day. I’m growing weak. I’m dying.
No one knows. They love my smile. I try to keep them happy. What about me? Can’t I be happy too? I want joy. I want to know what that feels like. I stay so strong. For what? Is it for me? I hope this all fades away. Please God. Save me.
aribbonwhereshedies 
It’s okay to not be okay. It’s also okay to be not okay for as long as you need it.
And one day when you open your eyes and notice you’re often okay comparatively, be open to accept that.
I don’t know if that made sense but it will over time. They don’t lie when they say “time heals.”
Just remember, you’re not alone in how you feel. And remember to just breathe (:
That made a lot of sense. Thank you very much for sharing your insight with me.
I know that right now you feel as if this is never going to pass, but it will, so hold on to that. And please remember that your smiles are making people happy until you can again make yourself happy. When you are through this, and you will, you’ll know a peace and self assuredness that you never knew you were capable of. For now, wrap yourself in the love of family and friends and one day you will wake up and be yourself again.
Thank you very much. It’s great to hear feedback. I really need it. Being in this low point in my life, I’m unaware of how to respond to all aspects surrounding me. I’m very weak and have no one to talk to. It’s hard. I’ll overcome everything one day, but for now I’m just broken and unhappy.
You inspired my post today “Wingman”, check it out.